Some Things You Only Get to Do Once

Some things you only get to do once...like become a mom for the first time. (Of course if we eventually adopt again or have biological children, those memories will be just as sweet, but different.) I am trying to enjoy every moment with Raleigh as we prepare to bring our son home. Lazy Saturday mornings listening to worship music and drinking coffee. Afternoons reading together sitting on the back porch enjoying the sunshine. Weeknights cooking dinner and watching American Idol and HGTV. I really want to enjoy every moment. I know these months with Raleigh, just the two of us, are precious and I want to cherish every moment of it. I know that in my head.

But sometimes my heart tells me differently. I pray for a miracle. Big miracles. I pray that our I-600 is approved quickly. I pray that we receive EP quickly. I pray that our son is home by his first birthday on June 26th.

You only become a mom for the first time once, and I want to enjoy all of it. I am trying to find the perfect balance. Loving and embracing the time with Raleigh, just us. Dreaming of what it will be like when there are three of us at home, instead of two. Knowing and trusting that God is in control of it all. He was in control in the spring of 2008 when He put adoption on our hearts. He was in control in February of 2009 when we made the quota. He was in control as we waited 18 months and 18 days for our referral. He is in control now.

People ask us a lot if we know when our son will be home. The answer is that we really have no idea. There are several things that have to happen on the US side and on the Korea side. For some families, the steps seem to move very quickly. For some families, the wait between each step is longer.

Raleigh is my rock and always reminds me that God gets the glory and is in control. I want to glorify Him by waiting with grace. Lord, grant me patience as we wait for each next step of the process.

Thank you Lord for the feeling of being a mom for the first time...pure joy as we dream of kissing his cute, chubby cheeks....praying over the picture of our sweet son...praying that he will come to know the Lord at an early age....dreaming of one day praying over him instead of just his picture.

I'm not really sure what this post was about, but I know this is a special season of life. Trying to cherish the time at home with Raleigh while also desperately wanting our son home.