Last Day of June

Waiting. Well, today is the last day of June and we are still waiting on Beau to come home. If you had asked me a month ago when he would be home, I would have said June! In fact I remember telling lots of people that I was "sure" he would be home for the 4th of July. There was no question in my mind. The days leading up to Beau's birthday were really not that hard. I focused on what type of cake to bake, the type of toy to buy him, etc. The day of his birthday was great too. We sang happy birthday and celebrated. But...the days after his birthday have been harder. Everyday is one day that he is getting older and learning new things. I want to watch him learn new things. I wake up each day thankful for a new day, because it is a new day that I might get an email about Beau coming home. But by about 4:30 each afternoon, I feel a little sting of disappointment because it is another day with no news.

I know that Beau will come home. I know that tears of joy will soon replace the tears caused by the waiting. I will continue to pray for God's peace during the remainder of the wait. Sometimes I feel guilty for even being sad about the wait, because so many others adopting from South Korea will have even longer waits due to the EP situation that I blogged about a few days ago.

Raleigh is so great and always reminds me of the blessing of this time that we have...just the 2 of us. And I am thankful for it, I really am. But mostly I am ready for our sweet Beau to come home. Hoping and praying that July is our month!

Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself,

“The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.”

The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him;
it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.
It is good for a man to bear the yoke while he is young.

Lamentations 3:22-27